- When I retire with my millions in 401k (not even close yet!) and just have to wait until the ripe age of 65 to tap that
- Or when my condo is paid off in VA...except now I moved to Dallas...and I want a home on a tropical beach too...so to be mortgage/rent free feels like never.
- Orrrrr when I make boat loads of money...THEN I'll be free.
Waiting for this ever elusive freedom to find me and make life easy and effervescently happy. A time where I'll take my private jet to my island home that's on a cliff with an infinity pool overlooking the turquoise blue water...as I wade in my perfectly toned, thin body...and have my housekeeper bring me a delicious meal with only organic ingredients that I enjoy in complete serenity....mmmmmmm....
THEN, and only then, will life be perfect and will I be free. In the meanwhile, I must toil and trudge in my peasantry. LOL - ok, I don't feel that extreme but I do keep waiting for my life to finally begin.
To begin...once the money comes, or the house, or the perfect job, the hot body, the dream husband, the cuddly baby, or all of the above and more.
As though feeling good is a destination based on an external circumstance. Except, it's like a moving target. As soon as you hit one milestone, you're already eyeing the next because you just don't feel that great yet. Something stillllll isn't there.
Waiting for that perfect time to feel happy and fulfilled and free. In the meanwhile, time is passing by. Day after day, year after year.
And then sometimes you look back at life and think, wow I was so thin back then...if only I appreciated it! Why didn't I travel more before the kids? I should have taken the leap then to do what I wanted...now I'm too tied down with bills and family and can't think about anything slightly 'unsafe' (btw - tied down with the things you really wanted to make you happy...ss Alanis so aptly said -- 'isn't it ironic?')
So we spend our moments idealizing some future and romanticizing the past. (sometimes it looks more like anxiety about the future and regret about the past but that's a topic for another day). And we let these moments slip by until we do go into the regret and the anxiety...
BUT what if...you DECIDED TO BE FREE TODAY? Maybe the word for you is happy...or joyful...or peaceful...or content...or fulfilled...or any <insert most desired> feeling. What would it be like to feel that way today?
I made that choice this year to feel free today and it shifted things immensely. I realized in many ways, I am incredibly free. I have a loving husband, travel often, don't need to worry about money, go on many adventures (just went to a pole-dancing class this past weekend!), work part-time, run a business that's based on my deep passion and purpose, and have so many wonderful friends it makes my heart sing.
Sharing this isn't to brag because I could also paint a diff't picture for you -- sometimes I wish my husband just knew to say 'I love you' and hug me when I cry (or yell), that I'm stuck living in a city that is SO boring, I don't make enough money, I feel lonely, there are days I want to kill my boss who can be such a b, and I feel so stuck in my business some days, I just want to flat out quit.
Guess what, both are real and part of my greater life tapestry. One perspective has me mired in staring at one piece of thread and whether or not I Iike that particular color. Or staring at a part that's still in design, uncertain what the final piece will look like and getting so frustrated that it's not there yet. It's easy to get stuck in this perspective and stuck is exactly how it feels.
And yet, when I step back for a moment and shift my perspective to see all that's there right now...I see beautiful artistry full of color and texture and interest. Curiosity about whats to come to fill in the white space of my future. Trusting that no matter what's happened until now and what will happen, my life is weaved together in divine perfection.
By The Divine who is fashioning everything in the perfect moment and time. Creating possibilities beyond what I ever could. All I have to do is open my eyes to all of my unique tapestry. Feeling, noticing, appreciating, and celebrating life today.
This perspective makes me feel SO much better. And when I feel better, good things start happening in my life. It's the way good energy works. Call it Karma, The Secret, Reticular Activating System, prayers heard...whatever you'd life...but know it's a universal law that when you feel good in your life, it invites more good to come. Like attracts like. What you notice is your reality. Try on a new perspective this week and see what shifts. You'll be pleasantly surprised. :)
So beautiful, how can you feel free today? What's one thing you're grateful for and can appreciate right now? Write me back and let me know!
You have a beautiful tapestry that's also wanting to be admired. :)